Thoughts Category

Squares

Would my life be better if I had learned to play chess instead of checkers? Then I could start out as a king Instead of waiting for my crown.

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On Control

What is control, anyway? This urge, this compulsion to hold on to the good and keep away the bad, to the best of our human ability, (is what we perceive only good to us? Can our good be someone else’s bad, and vice versa?), this unwillingness to sit, vulnerable and open, in the flow of […]

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On Comparison

Comparison kills creativity. Transmuting, or taking energy in one form (in this case, the negative energy of comparison), and changing it into a more meaningful energy, is a key to working through these thoughts that have the power to paralyze you into inertia. Instead of dropping into the negative spiral of energy you normally use […]

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On Fear

Originally written 6.23.20 The opposite of love is not hate. It might not even be apathy, which is what I used to believe for most of my marriage. The opposite of love is fear. When you don’t love someone, or think they don’t love you, there’s an instant fear. Apathy is a byproduct of time […]

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On Uncertainty #2

Originally written 11.4.20, post-presidential election//pre-presidential election decision It is in our uncertainty, our lack of knowing the outcome of a future event based on the footing from which we currently stand, that we grow into our future selves. Some might argue that we grow through action, or doing, or perseverance, heartbreak, sadness, wins, losses, love, […]

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On Uncertainty

Originally written 11.4.20, post-presidential election//pre-presidential election decision We humans act as if uncertainty is new, something novel or unusual, and in reality, it’s what we face each day. Before we even knew that we were uncertain we were uncertain. When we came out of the chute we were uncertain. Would we get fed if we […]

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On Rock Bottom

originally written 12.1.20 It’s very difficult to explain to people who have never hit rock bottom what rock bottom actually feels like. It’s a literal emptying of your entire body, soul, mind, spirit, heart, brain, blood and tissue matter to the point that you become a shell of a human, like a waxy chocolate easter […]

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