Thoughts Category

How to Beat Perfection

Fighting against perfection is an impossible battle. Impossible to play by the rules, impossible to win. Most of the time, we know better. But dammit if something doesn’t spark a return to that negative place when we least expect it.📚Last weekend I found myself triggered during the exploration of wheel pose in yoga teacher training […]

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Words Don’t Wait

Funny thing about writing–once you shift from seeing your days as minutes and hours to moments and emotions, you get no say in who, what, where, when, and why story fragments show up.📚Trying to stop the words until you’re ready, with paper, pencil, peace, and a perfectly poured cup of coffee only makes them tumble […]

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On Writing During a Crisis

Originally posted on BREVITY's Nonfiction Blog:
By Beth Morrow I made a new acquaintance recently who, in his days before three kids, a job in administration, and a divorce, had been an active and productive writer. He lauded me each evening for having sat down during this pandemic to flesh out the essays in…

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What You Don’t See Essay #1

Yesterday I mentioned that we’re slowly (or quickly, depending on perspective) closing in on the 6 month anniversary of when I lost my hubby to prostate cancer.

The number one, unquestionable lesson I’ve learned is…

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Marking Time After Death

On the 15th of October, around 10:25 a.m., I’ll be observing an anniversary of sorts that only a select group of people can fully comprehend and connect with. And one that only I internalize.

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Thank You, J.R.

Thanks for being you. I know you don’t know I’ve been writing about P’s death, because I’ve only told J.

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My Mom: A List

Things my mom got wrong:

  1. Toni home perms
  2. Veggie soy patties and homemade pancakes
  3. Blue eyeshadow
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Meditation 6.10.20

I was very aware before meditating of being in a very scattered, very headspace energy. I have just started a new relationship (not entirely sure it qualifies as a relationship yet, simply a new friendship?) and when this happens in my life, my thoughts always pull me out of the energy of the moment

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5 Unique Ways to Start a Conversation With a Widow

Seems my family and friends are having great difficulty talking to me since my hubby’s death five and a half months ago. In that time, exactly a dozen people (excluding my teaching colleagues, whom I see daily) have been in touch with me the person, not me the widow.

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First Lessons in Widowhood, or How Shit Gets Real in the First Five Months

From the time you stop counting the minutes between your spouse’s last breaths of earthly oxygen (I stopped at 7 minutes and 23 seconds before I called my dad to my husband’s hospice bed in the dining room to help me count), shit gets real…real fast.

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